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*I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay*
*And I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
But if the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too*
*Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah*
*I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that? *
*Who do you love?
Girl I see through, through your love
Who do you love me or the thought of me? me or the thought of me?*
*Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening *
*I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy*
*And you can´t fight the tears that ain´t coming
Or the moments of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you´re alive.*
*And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?*
*From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on*
*The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all*
Love's Loneliness by William Butler Yeats
Old fathers, great-grandfathers,
Rise as kindred should.
If ever lover's loneliness
Came where you stood,
Pray that Heaven protect us
That protect your blood.
The mountain throws a shadow,
Thin is the moon's horn;
What did we remember
Under the ragged thorn?
Dread has followed longing,
And our hearts are torn.
Rise as kindred should.
If ever lover's loneliness
Came where you stood,
Pray that Heaven protect us
That protect your blood.
The mountain throws a shadow,
Thin is the moon's horn;
What did we remember
Under the ragged thorn?
Dread has followed longing,
And our hearts are torn.
since it is the first day of the new year, i felt compelled to write on here. resolution time? maybe. i normally don't do the whole "new year, new life" thing but i'll be a little cliche, i suppose. i normally make resolutions every other day. why wait for a new year?! haha. anyway, here it goes:
1. quit smoking: that's the big one, i'll still do it occasionally...but VERY occasionally.
2. to look before i leap: i tend to be the type of person who stands on the edge and when i wonder what's at the bottom...i jump. then after the fall, i end up with 3 broken ribs, a broken leg, (and often heart) covered in jank, looking back up at the ledge longingly, wondering how i ended up at the bottom. i've felt that way a few too many times, and as hard as it is for someone like me who is so easily driven by emotions and not common sense, i plan to remember that all our actions have consequences.
3. to care a little more about schoolwork: i skate really well. i get Bs, but if i actually tried, i could have As.
4. to not care so much about what other people think: while, i think it's good to care about what other's think, i don't think that it should really dictate your actions or how you feel about yourself. i have a horrible habit of imagining what people must be thinking whenever i do something. it honestly shouldn't matter.
5. to get around campus more: i love TKE with all my heart and will, undoubtedly, be there for every one of their events, but i'd really like to get out and about more. as much as i don't like some of the other fraternities *coughs sigEp* i'd still like to see if maybe i can learn to like them more or at least occasionally get a change of scenery.(just not sigEp...haha)
6. to not get involved so quickly: i want to know a guy before i start dating him. it's a little difficult to know that you want to be with someone, when you don't really know who they are. i've learned that. i mean, i don't have to have known him for 5 years or anything, i would just like to move a little slower and find out more about them before i change my facebook status. lol
I guess there are other things that i would like to change about myself, but some of them are as essential to me as my double x chromosome. lol.
i can't change my headstrong stubborn nature, i can try to improve it but that's about it.
i can't help but be passionate about the people/things that i love. i can't just sorta love, with me it's all or nothing. i mean, it hurts more when i have a falling out, etc. but i wouldn't want myself to be half-hearted about anything or anyone.
i can't help but make mistakes. sometimes i need to make mistakes to remember that i can. i'm never going to be perfect, i don't want to be. sometimes i don't want to do the right thing. does that make me a bad person? i don't think so. people are fallible.
i'm still going to be rough around the edges, flawed, crazy at times, maybe a little too drunk sometimes, or a little too fresh at moments, but you know, that's just me. i don't need or want to change that.
it's been rough going the passed few months, but i've realized that as long as i don't loose sight of who i am, i can get by. will i get hurt again? undoubtedly. am i still hurting? assuredly. was it worth it? maybe. would i do anything differently? probably not.
will i follow my resolutions? heh. meow. ummm...sure? hopefully.
i'll give it a try, anyways. :)
-amanda jo=2009
- Location:home at DOZ
- Mood:
and tired - Music:All I Need by Radiohead
my love horoscope for last week...
For the Week of Dec 1st, 2008 -- Kindness counts more than being cool on Friday so listen attentively and talk sweetly to make the best impression possible. The tune changes on Saturday when you may start to lose your patience and take a more assertive approach to relationships. Being bolder can work as long as you don't go too far and push someone away.
sound familiar???
- Location:work
- Mood:weirded out
- Music:none, i'm with a tester
Monday, Nov 17th, 2008 -- You have reached your limit dealing with people who are not willing to acknowledge their feelings. But don't jump to any conclusions, for it's possible that you misinterpreted someone's attempt to reach out to you. Sometimes, you can be so goal-oriented that you miss a more subtle communication. Take the time to sink into your emotions before accusing others of avoiding theirs.
For the Week of Nov 17th, 2008 -- Communication challenges can complicate your personal life this weekend. Taking the time to be precise about what you say and making sure that you're clear about what you hear may be awkward but is necessary. Being on the same page with someone is essential if romance is to blossom.
haha, yeah i probably should've been more clear with some people...
- Location:work
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:none, sad day
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- Location:DOZ couch
- Mood:
apathetic - Music:lollipop by lil wayne
Thursday, Oct 23rd, 2008 -- No matter how deeply you try to dig today, you won't likely get to the bottom of what's happening. Everyone's motives appear to be close to the surface, yet they are more hidden than you realize. Instead of wasting precious time trying to find the source of someone's inspiration, just accept things at face value. You can always do additional detective work later on.
- Location:debbie's desk
- Mood:
bored - Music:keep on loving you cover by the donnas
Wednesday, Oct 22nd, 2008 -- You may feel as if you are living your life in a fishbowl now and everyone can see everything you do all the time. The truth of the matter is that you are moving through a phase when you can withhold more than is prudent. It's true that you can lose power by disclosing too much too fast, yet you may miss an opportunity for growth if you don't take a chance and open up.
- Location:tke
- Mood:
crappy - Music:the daily show
- Location:the obudsman's for last time
- Mood:
cold - Music:Black Roses Red by Alana Grace
